Is this the end of it? . . .

|are you happy ?| 

Welcome back to my blog and January month is going to be end soon . People said that if i update my blog it will be because of my mood is happy , sad or

 what to share with you all . This time topic is about "Is this the end of it?" . I bet everyone will be thinking i'm gonna end my life , my studies and others . No it is not of what you are thinking of it . For now i just want to get rid from my life for a moment . I really dont know why im getting more bad luck . Its just came suddenly like that . Nevermind . Yesterday , its was fun and really make my day . I feel like going to study more and have a confident on passing every exam. 

Life is just so beautifull when lies and hateful feelings come to us . You would cry nearly for a week or monthly . Many teenagers would to take suicide or kill themself . Hey , i wanted to tell you that i have been in that situation for 7 years . Im telling you that you should calm down yourself and forget all the problems for awhile . Sometimes people cant judge by looking and our life . When you go into that world . You will regret for your whole life . You suicide because of people hate you , doesnt like you , your relationship is done or what . ITS JUST A STUPID FEELING YOU ARE GOING THROUGH NOW . I know you will say "this girl doesnt know how i feel the worst pain i never had" . And yet im telling you the truth . Theres a solution for you to start a new life . You should throw away of those feelings . If you made it . You are a strong person and no one would hurt you anymore . Change yourself to a better person that people would respect and like you . Its just take time for people to understand you . I hope this advice would change you into a better person . 

I wanted to be happy with my family , friends and others . But sometimes people would stab you back from the back . I dont think so my family is happy to have me . Even my friend look doesnt want to be friend with me . All i need it to smile and be a strong person . Im already tired of people who keep saying to me "the one that loved you soon will leave you ." . You know what . Actually you are the one who just making my life getting worst by your words . Yes , im a negative thinker sometimes but not always . Sometimes i really hate sora untill i wanted to kill him for real . But well , those feelings are just haunting me back for awhile . He want me to put trust on him . For now , i might say no untill i meet him face to face . Im really mad because why he dun know how to makeup when cosplay . Even myself speechless with him. .. i think i have to go now . So see ya later