| how am i supposed to be happy again |
I want to update this one for the last . I already do many things that make me happy but it didnt work . Those words , those memories make me become a person who is totally broken . I cant be happy always. I wanted to be happy but how ? I keep this secret from him so he will never worried about me . Im sorry . I didnt mean to but have to keep it . I wish someone can always be beside me and make me happy .
Everytime i talk , laugh and make happy face it doesnt mean im totally fine . I always cried for someone to help me get out from this feelings but i cant . Am i born to suffer ? Not to be loved by someone ? I know there's people just like me having this problem . I feel like i want to leave this world quickly . Im glad that i can make other people happy but for myself . I didnt . Im really happy that im really suffering myself .
Why my parents really hate me ? Why people always leaving me behind ? Why you like to see im suffering ? Why are you so happy when i cried ? Why you like to see me in pain ? The answer is . . .
"i shouldnt be in this world"
| bye |
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