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I'm really sorry for the previous post . No one would understand me even i've explain many times , they won't get it right . So for this post let me be honest for my friend, myself and everyone who read this post . Anyway welcome back to my blog . Alot of people have gone through their worst moment in their life , am i right ? One of them survive but the other's end up kill themself by doing suicide things .
I have endure those painful memories , feelings and the words that always people said towards me that would break off my confidence . Everytime i would contact my friend that who really understand my problem and i'll cry over them cuz each time i explain it's really freaking hurt as hell . I wanted to let it go before it's too late . But the most painful memories is someone who you love don't even understand you even you adore them so much . I would try to delete those memories soon enough . Each time i remember it , i wanna cry all day long . Because i hate it . i don't like it . i don't even want to turn back the time even i had the chance to do it . I regret what i've done towards Anni . I let her go .She still inlove with her previous ex gf even the girl had gave alot of painful memories . She's suffering with breast cancer . Now she is in stage 3 , i'm totally upset . I wish i can meet her and kiss her and tell her i would wait for her even she's dying right now .
I hope she survive . Everyday i pray for her . Let's go to the next one , why i become a cosplayer ? Alot of people wants to know the truth about it . The answer is I would like to become a new person and throw away my bad personality . Everytime i'm cosplaying my favorite character i feel like i'm not myself . I felt totally happy and i'm into the character more . I like it . I like it so much cuz it could make me forget this stupid reality . I'm running away from it . Other than that , i'm learning to arrange the time and more . It's does gain my newself . I'm happy with it at the same time i felt bad for Anni .
Right now , i'm starting to change into a new person and be a useful person . I'll try to score every exam and have an excellent result in my education . I had those good friend with me , my family that argue with me alot but still love me , my useful partner haha xD . I am happy now . Let's make our dream come true now everyone :D !
See ya next time ~!
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